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The title says it all. First two weeks of school has been both heaven and hell. I've got to make awesome mates over the past few days but sometimes I can't help but to be lonely. I go to school, talk to them in class, eat lunch, then go home. I feel really empty somewhere in me. I just want to be alone for now. School work is a killer. In every module there's bound to be at least one assignment. Now I get it why lecturers say "We will see the Sun rise." Well, I haven't seen the sun rise yet but I'm sure in either week 6 and 7 I'm gonna see loads of it. It's the end of week 2 now and my head hurts from looking at the list of work I have to do over the weekend. More like only one day of work. I'm working tomorrow and I can't find a replacement. This heavy feeling in my heart... to think that I will have to work till end of May during the weekends. Bummer. I'm sure I'll fall ill anytime soon and it ain't an excuse to not to come to school. Feels like everyday is vital and if you miss out a single lesson, that's it. Despite all the stress, I've been quite satisfied with my work but I can't help feeling pathetic next to the uber talented classmates who can actually draw and illustrate. I can't do no shit. Gotta buck up. First, let me cry in a corner. Oh yes. Shiet. The letter come from Mendaki to get Sister's cpf statement and I'm left with a few days. Even lesser. Even no days at all. My application would be void and Dad has to pay full school fees. This cannot happen. Dad's been working so hard for the whole family. Mum says he's stressed. I can't help with anything. I've only been sucking money out from his wallet because of my course materials. The only thing I can do now is to work hard. Dad, stay strong. Mum's coming home tomorrow finally. Really miss her presence at home. Her on the com singing. Watching her filipino tv drama. Listening to me rant every night. Gosh I love my parents so much. I just don't know. I feel so emotional tonight. It's the stress from everything that's happening right now I guess.
.
Feels like
a mental breakdown
I can't take it anymore
I'll burst anytime soon

Okay, despite all this emotional feels tonight, I have to continue my research now. Did you know Andy Warhol is gay?

The title says it all. First two weeks of school has been both heaven and hell. I've got to make awesome mates over the past few days but sometimes I can't help but to be lonely. I go to school, talk to them in class, eat lunch, then go home. I feel really empty somewhere in me. I just want to be alone for now. School work is a killer. In every module there's bound to be at least one assignment. Now I get it why lecturers say "We will see the Sun rise." Well, I haven't seen the sun rise yet but I'm sure in either week 6 and 7 I'm gonna see loads of it. It's the end of week 2 now and my head hurts from looking at the list of work I have to do over the weekend. More like only one day of work. I'm working tomorrow and I can't find a replacement. This heavy feeling in my heart... to think that I will have to work till end of May during the weekends. Bummer. I'm sure I'll fall ill anytime soon and it ain't an excuse to not to come to school. Feels like everyday is vital and if you miss out a single lesson, that's it. Despite all the stress, I've been quite satisfied with my work but I can't help feeling pathetic next to the uber talented classmates who can actually draw and illustrate. I can't do no shit. Gotta buck up. First, let me cry in a corner. Oh yes. Shiet. The letter come from Mendaki to get Sister's cpf statement and I'm left with a few days. Even lesser. Even no days at all. My application would be void and Dad has to pay full school fees. This cannot happen. Dad's been working so hard for the whole family. Mum says he's stressed. I can't help with anything. I've only been sucking money out from his wallet because of my course materials. The only thing I can do now is to work hard. Dad, stay strong. Mum's coming home tomorrow finally. Really miss her presence at home. Her on the com singing. Watching her filipino tv drama. Listening to me rant every night. Gosh I love my parents so much. I just don't know. I feel so emotional tonight. It's the stress from everything that's happening right now I guess.
.
Feels like
a mental breakdown
I can't take it anymore
I'll burst anytime soon

Okay, despite all this emotional feels tonight, I have to continue my research now. Did you know Andy Warhol is gay?

Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts or at least we are getting there.

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